Passionate about understanding the human mind and improving it.

Read This If You're Feeling Like You Hate Your Life

Summer of 2018 was by far one of the most difficult times in my life. My depression was at an all time high and nothing was working to fix it. I remember lying in bed most days wondering when my life was going to end. One day, while on my couch I was looking out of the window at the sunshine and the green grass and I remember feeling like another person was viewing life through my eyes. I didn't feel like myself at all.
Life felt extremely dull.
This was unlike me because I am normally a pretty upbeat person that really does try to see the bright side of things. I mean, I would scream from excitement while driving in my car some days because of how happy I was to simply be alive.
That summer was different.
I genuinely wanted to be gone. I didn't want to exist. I felt that I had nothing to live for. In trying to figure out what exactly caused this very dark phase in my life, I realized that the birth control pill I was on had a lot to do with it. I eventually stopped taking it and it was seriously like night and day. Shortly after I was back to my happy self.
During the difficult times though, I did everything in my power to feel better. Some days were harder than others and I struggled to even leave my bed to shower. On the days where I had even the slightest bit of energy, I did things. I took a walk outside, I read books, I went to a hypnotherapist, and even floated in a sensory deprivation tank. I tried my very best to not sulk in the sadness. That summer I learned a lot about mental health that not a single Psychology college course has ever taught me and it's that the mind, when sick, can be one of the scariest places to be. I couldn't think of one single good thing that I'd done in my life up to that point.
The reason that I am opening up about this very personal experience is to remind you to get up and do something about whatever it is that you are going through. We tend to accept our struggles with no hope that anything can help them. We become victims of the pain when we can be heroes.
We all encompass the ability to solve any issue that we are confronted with. The tools are within each and every one of us. Nothing can destroy us without our consent. The moment we allow pain to conquer us is the moment we claim defeat. Not a single person is destined for failure and struggle. We are all destined for greatness and yet most fail to believe this.
Decide, do you want to remain suffocated by the sadness or do you want to live up to your full potential?
Start by working on the mind, the rest will follow.